Saving the World, saving myself...
Mood:  incredulous
Topic: Tucson
Tonight was an awesome night. Let me go back a little further and say that today was an awesome day. It started with a phone call from my friend Jamie. I thought I was talking like a toad because I just woke up but as a matter of fact I was losing my voice. As soon as I went through hair & makeup, and stopped in at wardrobe I thought that today would be just another weekend that I pissed away doing nothing, but contrary, this Saturday was one of the most productive Saturdays that Ive had in a long time.
So here is the event rundown. I meet Jamie at his house and we go to Miss Saigon, then Its off to the movie theater to see "House of Flying Daggers", which was so cool by the way. We just happened to see some people we knew in the theater. I think it was a bit uncomfortable for some, but it was brief enough that it was over before long. Then we went back to Jamie's, house and it being such a nice day, took the scenic route to the circle K by the U of A rec center. There were many a bodacious bodies of both sexes to scope along the way. Then it was hang out and talk about nothing for the entire afternoon. It was so awesome to just sit there and drift in and out of conversation with someone without it seeming awkward. But there were many picture books to keep attention focused off the conversation. Now before you go thinking that we were looking at pure unadulterated porn, I'm going to call a safety and say that it was infact highly classified porn, disguised as pseudo-intellectual witty rambling found in Instinct and other gay magazine publications. Anyway, a little bit of bad news in the afternoon, I found out that the Hospice patient that I was assigned to passed away on Thursday and I was left uninformed. I got to talk to the caretaker/daughter though, and she was very appreciative and really happy to hear from me. I was knocked somber, so Jamie being the good friend, offered booze immediately. I might have been somber, but I didn't have to be sober, and Jamie knew it. After a while, we went to Brooklyn Pizza, home of the greatest slice and spot for people watching and trash talking. My crowning victory was splirting out in mid-conversation "oh my god, eat something, quick!" to a wafer thin bean pole that just walked through the door seconds before. I always knew I had it in me, and there it was clear as day. Proof that I too could be a bitch. We saw many a hot men, and some not so hot coming in and out. We were there for a good long while. We were in no apparent rush today. We wanted to do something non-routine so we decided to find Jamie a sex partner. We were willing to scrape the bottom of the bucket so we decided to go straight there, to the yard dog it was. On our way up the street I was going to suggest we make a pass through IBT's even though it was so early in the evening, but before we even got there, there was a young boy holding on to the street sign at the corner for his balance as we was stinking drunk. He was cute, but drunken twinkies aren't, weren't, and never will be my thing. We asked him if he needed help, but he kept talking about his friend Jason, who we were sure didn't exist at first. But sure enough Jason was real, and every bit as drunk as friend. At this point we were really concerned, concerned for their health and for their welfare. Jason was waiving around this debit card and blabbing out his pin number (8214) so I told him he should put it away. At one point we were going to walk away and ignore them like everyone else was doing. This is the saving the world part. Jamie said, if you are going to call, then give me your phone and I'll call. So I did, and he did, and I kept the two detained and distracted. I knew these cha-cha hips would come in good use someday. Anyway, the police arrived shortly after. Jamie's was mad because it took him getting transferred 5 times before he actually got to talk to someone about the whole thing. He was really in a seriously pissed mood immediately following, but I couldn't help but tell him what a great thing he had just done. He may have ruined their night, but hopefully he helped in teaching them a lesson. Hopefully their parents were called and notified about the whole underage drinking thing. Hopefully they will know better than to get toasted drunk and wander into the street in the future. And hopefully people will learn to take some responsibility for their environment whether its initially their business or not, because eventually those kids will be adults and not very responsible yet potentially more threatening and dangerous-to-society adults and then we as people will have no choice but to deal with them, only by then it will be much more difficult. Oh tonight we looked into the future and we changed a disaster before it happened. I think so highly of my friend Jamie tonight. I knew there was awesomeness inside him and tonight it shined like the north star. After that I couldn't tell him enough how I thought he just saved the world. I was honored to have him with me. He said no one likes calling the cops and that it made him feel old but that someone had to do it. I told him not to mistake age for responsibility. I told him that he should be proud. After that the rest of my night was devoted to ensuring that the rest of the night go in his favor, and for that I feel accomplished. We did start the bar hopping at yard day like we had planned, only know it was extra satisfying to be there because there were no youngens to be watched over, no quite the contrary. In fact there was nothing but older man, a cute doorman, and a sexy leather daddy that Jamie ended up giving his number to. After a couple drinks we were off to our next stop, Woodys. We got out of the car and immediately smelled foulness in the air. The atmosphere inside was equally foul so we turned around and went to the next stop on the Joe and Jamie circuit, Howl at the Moon. It was a little bit a country and a little bit a lame, so we stayed only long enough to distinguish which were hot cowboys and which were powerdykes with good stetsons. After that brief encounter we were off to Novembers bar and grill. At last I went to Novembers, it was a gay establishment, but something horribly twisted happened somewhere along the line and it was not so magically turned into either a straight bar or a super lesbian strip club. While we were there our nipples were twisted by one of the strippers with a little sweater and big thighs. Jamie got a spanking, but I refused mine. I was shocked, for one that Novembers had changed so drastically, but also because that bitch pinched my nipple. It didn't hurt, but it was just rude! So there it was 11:15pm, we had already accomplished so much. Jamie had already saved the world, found a leather daddy, and got spanked and pinched by a stripper. Maybe I'm crazy but I thought we were off to a great start. We decided to go to Venture and stir up some trouble. We didn't find much be we did find Kyle. Kyle is a nice guy and I was interested in him for about 2 seconds, but I think it was shallow, not him, the thought though. I don't think we could have anything substantial together. I actually feel bad thinking about it, but it only reminds me that people can be so opportunistic at times. Oh well, I cant blame them, I guess I'm the same way. Anyway, back to the night. We thought that it was sort of dead, but we decided to wait a bit and see what the night brought out. We ran into Mark Camacho, another one of Nathans Ex's. We talked, or should I say that I let him talk about whatever it is he rambles on about when I approach him. This time it was something about his credit union and taking out too much money and putting it back right away but hopefully in time to pay bills. Hey Mark, hope everything works out for you. So one of Kyles friends tried to ask me out but I wasn't feeling it. I didn't realize it till later, but I totally turned myself off so that Jamie could have the night. I thought so intently that the night should go to him for saving the world that I went around to everyone telling them about the heroic maneuver. We ran into a couple friendly faces and had a few drinks, the bartender was a bitch to Jamie so I left him no tip when I ordered. You fuck with my friends then your fuckin with me, bitch! So after that we went to our inevitably terminal clubbing destination, IBT's. It was different this time though, I wasn't there for me, which was really nice feeling. I was there with my friend who saved the world tonight, and I was there for emotional support. It was really a magical experience. So he has seen this guy around that he really likes and he wanted to invite him to the party that he is having next weekend but he doesn't like his friends who are always with him and was waiting for the perfect opportunity to approach him. I tried to run decoy but turning off for the night meant I couldn't use my super powers at all. So no such luck in the distraction department. But I did write Jamie's number down on a piece of paper so that he could give it to the guy he was after. It was sort of cute to see Jamie get all shy about a guy. Totally not typical Jamie, but cute. He eventually snapped out of it and just approached the guy. It was a beautiful thing. Afterwords all was good in the land of the gays. I was approached by a guy named Randy who asked me to come home with him, to which I politely declined. And I was so proud of me then because I was just complaining earlier that I lack the capability to say no most of the time and it doesn't help my self esteem. But not once but twice tonight did I decline offers, mostly because I wasn't in the nood, but also because I wanted to be direct yet friendly about it. After that I was spent. I told Jamie I wanted to leave, he said he was ready to, so then we went to circle K once more, both glowing with goodness. There was some cuties there, but I paid no mind as I was happy to see that Jamie was still in just as good a mood as he was this morning. We went back to his house, watched Ren & Stimpy and ended the night there. It really was an awesome day. I cant tell you how proud I am of Jamie and of myself. I guess we really helped each other tonight. We both got great companionship out of the day, and he got his wish. I got a sense of self, something I have been struggling with lately. Those people we ran into at the movie theater today, they were Nathan my ex-boyfriend, Sathya the plucky humor guy, and Nathans new friend Nathan. It was awkward yes, and shortly after sitting down next to them, I realized how badly I had just shot myself in the foot (or daggered myself in the back if we are going to draw parallels to the movie). I forgot that there would be an end to the movie, and a point where I would actually have to talk to Nathan and meet the other Nathan. But as much as I dreaded it, it happened and it wasn't that bad. He seemed like a nice guy and I didn't feel the urge to tear him to pieces. Actually after meeting him, I didn't feel an urge at all. I guess I was afraid of the unknown, but now nothing of the situation is unknown and I feel that I know all that I may need or want to know. Actually Jamie thought they looked cute together, which was strange, but he was still on my side, he said he was trying to avoid contact as much as possible too. We both tried to keep to ourselves after the movie ended but ended up talking to the rest of the group. He was trying his best to make sidestepping conversation, bless his huge heart, meanwhile I ran for cover in the bathroom thinking that if I stayed in there long enough that they all would just leave. I was a little offended that Nathan didn't even call me to ask if I wanted to go in the first place, but like my homepage says right now, change is a good thing, eventually. So I was proud of myself for taking that so well, it could have gone better, but it could have been a lot worse. Long story long, I guess what I have been afraid of since the appearance of the second Nathan in the picture is losing Nathan and having to face life on my own. But I realized today that even without Nathan I can get by just fine. I can communicate with people and help friends, I can have meaningful relationships and do things that matter and all this stuff. All this and more I felt like I could only do holding Nathans hand before. I know that I'm strange, I'm always going to be a bit of that no matter who I'm hanging onto, but the important question is, am I comfortable with myself as the stranger that I am? And after today, the answer to that is a profound YES! with friends like Jamie and Nathan, anything is possible.